Archive for life lessons
Things Move Too Fast.
Posted by: | CommentsLast weekend Aiden lost his first tooth. When he first told me he had a loose tooth I thought he was joking. Children lose teeth, not my baby.
The night after we pulled his tooth out I heard him crying in his bed. When I asked him what was wrong his tears turned into a full on sob.
“I just want my tooth back in my mouth. I just want everything to go back to normal.”
It took all the strength in the world not to say “me too” and curl up with him and cry.
Things move too fast.
I have been thinking about going back to school. Actually, I have never stopped thinking about going back to school but I think I found a program I might actually want to do. A program that would work with my current life schedule. I am not ready to tell you what the program is but I can tell that if you thought I was crazy for getting a Philosophy degree? You are going to totally lose your mind on this one.
Last weekend I started working on my entrance essay and found myself pouring on to the page words that I didn’t know I had in me. What came out of it was a twenty-page memoir type essay about a story that I have spent the past five years trying to figure out how to tell.
I want to tell more stories.
Wednesday I wore a dress and tights and was probably over-dressed but I really didn’t care. I took the day off and instead of sitting in my office, building beautiful things and talking to myself, I went to see people! People! I decided that people seeing required tights and a dress. Because sometimes that is just the way it is.
I really want to re-invent this blog, or maybe delete and start a new blog from scratch. Sometimes I imagine that I could be a food blogger, or a craft blogger or maybe a humor blogger. But then I realize that I would have to learn to cook, or sew, or craft. These feelings aren’t just applicable to this blog, its how I think about my life sometimes too. Maybe I can erase and start anew as a baker, or a musician that travels the country, or maybe even a celebrity. Perhaps, I could be more Paris Hilton like?
It’s not that I don’t enjoy my life, I really do. I just wish there was more consistency in being me. I wish I had a specific talent or hobby or personality trait that perfectly described me. I try to imagine if I were a character in a book who I would be, but I am pretty sure that I wouldn’t fit into a book because my character would be too messy and all over the place. A good friend of mine describes me as “un-categorically strange,” because I can’t even fit into the traditional definitions of strange. I am my own kind of weird, my own kind character and sometimes that is completely annoying.
Today I am linking up with Just Write.
On a completely unrelated note you can find me over here this week talking about what trends we are going to see in the next year. I am also over here talking about How-To get press for your blog.
Inspiration.
Posted by: | CommentsLast year I took a few trips across the country in buses and vans to stand in streets and talk about peace. To dance down sidewalks with signs and people in silly costumes.
I was standing in a crowd of hippie-type folk and needed to go back while everyone moved forward.
I needed to find my friends.
One by one people moved sideways, set their bags down and helped me search for the people I had lost.
They took time to help. They showed patience among chaos and my heart filled up with happy.
Not one person rolled their eyes or grabbed each others hands to prevent me from squeezing through. Not one person even sighed out of annoyance that I was trying to get through this impossibly tight crowd.
Yesterday Stephanie asked what inspired us and the only thing I could think of was that moment.
It reminded me of how hard it is to stop and listen to what people need. How annoyed I get when people are moving in the opposite direction than I want them do. How much being present matters. How important it is to love strangers and practice peace.
Life moves fast and to-do lists grow and disappear and days turn to nights and the world keeps moving. It is hard to remember to slow down to set the to-do list aside and listen.
What inspires me?
Staring a stranger in the eyes and smiling. Holding a door open for someone who doesn’t need it. Watching strangers at a four way stop wave to each other to go first–making decisions and compromising with people you will never speak words to.
What inspires me?
Children telling stories. Music turned up loud. The fall air swaddling you into your blankets. Football games and twirling into the night.
Moments of silence and moments of laughter that can be heard from miles away.
What inspires you?
